I nak so-so life. Tak happy sangat tak sedih sangat. K?

Have you guys ever realized that 'what the yell is happening with my life?'

Macam kau rase kau tengah buat apa ni?

Macam apesal kau rasa terapung sangat ni? Hilang arah tuju.

Macam hidup kurang bermakna, kurang dekat mana?

Macam kau nak buat something yang kau betul betul suka, passionate, tapi apa bendanya? Tak jumpa lagi.

Macam kau nak establish la hidup kau ni, achieve the goal or something, but the thing is you dont even know what is your goal, yet.

Agaknya sebab cuti kot sekarang. Asyik happy je menjalani kehidupan yang ringan (takde uni, sahur, tidur, tengok cerita, jumpa kawan, bukak puasa, tarawikh, tidur-ringan habis).

To be honest, i dont really feel comfortable living in this kind of harmony life. Siapa taknak bila happy memanjang, travel all the times, tak payah pergi uni, tak payah risau itu ini. But, on top of those, i feel empty. My life is empty. I guess, i need the worriness. So that im on a track. The right track (amin). I need the sadness. So that it strengthens my grasp. I need the problems. So that at least, my brain is thinking of something. And, i do need a bit of love, happiness, joy, cheerful and passionate. So that i feel ALIVE.

By,

Liyana Wawahir