18 Sources of Barakah

1. Good intentions

2. Piety and belief in Allah

3.Du'a

4. Putting your trust in Allah

5. Reading Qur'an

6. Honesty in trade

7. Saying Bismillah

8. Solah

9. Charity

10. Praying Istikharah

11. Halal income

12. Marriage

13. Waking up early

14. Tying your ties kinship

15. Giving thanks to Allah

16. following sunnah

17. Eating with people

18. Asking Allah for forgiveness.

PS : Risau sangatlah tahap gile sebab minggu depan ada tiga test okay, ulang lagi sekali, tiga. lagi sekali, tiga. lagi lagi lagi. Tiga. Tapi satu ape yang sedang belajar ni belom lagi melekat dekat kepala. Macam mana ea? Ambil pulak online gened course ; Brave New World. Entah apa - apa yang aku ambil. Dan belum ada rasa nak mula padehal dah start dah ni. Kenapa? Kenapa? Kenapaaa? I'm so down.

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah. Sesungguhnya hambaMu ini sedang betul betul down dan bagaikan tiada semangat dan motivasi. Kurniakanlah diriku semangat, hanya padaMu aku bermohon. Dan gembirakan lah hati ku. :'(

Ey ey, Remember this? 

Turn to Allah, he's never far away, put your trust in Him, raise your hands and pray, O Ya Allah, guide my step, don't let me go astray, You're the only One, can show me the way, show me that way.

Insya Allah. I'll find the way. Yes I will. I put my trust in Him.

Camon camon camon. Linxxxxxxd, aja - aja fighting!!! jika kau fikirkan kau boleh, kau pasti boleh melakukan, jika kau fikirkan ragu - ragu, usahamu tidak menentu. Engkaulah apa kau fikirkan, terkandung dalam pemikiran, berfikir boleh melakukan, fikirkan boleh! leh leh leh. Gema. 

Kbye. :D

Haniyah

Hi, I've mixed feeling right now.

Feels like want to write something, but at the same time, nothing to write when there are a lot to write. Wah, cwazy.

Okaylah, tulis pasal housemate kite la, Haniyah @ Yujie Chen.

Haa. There is one fact yang sangat menarik tentang someone who just convert to Islam. Alhamdulillah. Dari channel TV al-Hijrah, there is one sister named Loo Jo Yee (17), she is just converting to Islam. And she said that, the first thing first, dia terfikir kenapa in Islam, man can be married to at most 4 wives, but not for woman. That was not fair for her. So, she's doing some research from Al-Quran, read Prophet SAW's history so that she can debate it with Muslims, tapi ape yang terjadi adelah sebaliknya, it's not for debate anymore, but a way for her to Islam. Subhanallah.

And ape yang macam kebetulan yang menakjubkan, that's the same question that made my housemate, Haniyah, approaching Islam. Masya-Allah. Sangat amazing enn? Lepas tu Haniya cerita, after convert to Islam, all the hardship before macam in between nak convert tu, in between nak kenal Islam, ape persoalan yang nak didebatekan, semua tu macam dah dilupakan. Kalau orang ingatkan, baru rasa macam "eh do I really said that before?" wah. Masya-Allah.

And satu lagi, setiap kali bersembang dengan Haniyah ni kan, dia selalu cakap "Masya-Allah", "Alhamdulillah", "Subhanallah". Erm. And dia selalu cerita pasal China. Mongolian war. And everything about China. Macau. And dia selalu masak tipical Chinese Food. Waa I'm so gonna miss her. She's going back to China for good. :|

First Day

First day was hectic kot.

Kelas hari ini 6jam. Semua lectures je kot. Pagi tadi bangun pun macam dah tak berape semangat kan. Biaselah budak malas ni bukan nak excited first day pergi sekolah. Kalau first day cuti lain ah kan. Bila dah siap habis semua, ingat nak pakai tudung baru lah kan. Cewah macam budak sekolah pulak nak baru - baru.

Tapi dasar iron aussie. Jenis tak faham bahase Melayu. Bila pakai low power, tak hilang kedut. Sekali katanya non-stick. Saye ingat berkualiti sangat. Jadi bukak max lah sebab nak cepat. Ini tudung ketiga dah try untuk pergi uni. Jadi bukak max. Letak je trerusss pssssss bikin panas. Terbakar. Haih. Ingat masa sekolah je berlaku 'kebakaran' sebegini.

Dah tu first class lambat 10minit. Nasib lecturer dia lagi lambat. Haha. Lecturer pun lepak - lepak macam budak engine kot.

And for the last class, sumorang pun macam dah tak larat dah sebab non stop dari 2pm till 6pm. Then dah lah belajar balik benda yang tahun lepas. Susah gila nak refresh. Hari first dah belajar susah - susah. Orang buat lah sesi suai kenal dulu ke. Cewah. Haha. Then tiba - tiba ada sorang student ni, dia tepuk meja, lepas tu dia jerit "F**k this Sh**!", pastu angkat bag, terus keluar. Gila ah. Sumorang terdiam kot. Lecturer pun terdiam.

Kemudian orang pun gelak - gelak. Saye rase macam kesian gila dekat lecturer dia. Lecturer dia dah lah lelaki. Dah berumur pulak tu. Lecturer dia macam tersengih je lah. Kesian ah. Tak patut. Bukan hang sorang tak faham ah. Relax ah. Hang bayaq berapa pun for this course, pakcik tu seorang guru kot.

Okay bye tu je. Sekarang tengah pening nak print lecture notes. Tapi esok takde kelas. Yeyeh. Nak pergi E.G (cannot write full location) nak beli roller blade :D

Hope

I don't wanna live my life recklessly anymore.

"Your medicine is in the Revelation, the Quran and Sunnah, your comfort is in faith, your delight in prayer, your peace of mind in contentment, the beauty of your face is smiling, the protection of your honour is in hijab, and your tranquility in zikr (remembrance of Allah, the All-Merciful)."

"When you see someone who is not as religious, remember that you were once on the edge of the fire, and it was Allah(swt)'s favor upon you to guide you. Arrogance will wipe away any goodness from the transformation" - Nouman Ali Khan

Siape Nouman Ali Khan? Jap eh kita carik dekat google. Ouu yeah. He is a Muslim speaker and the CEO and founder of Bayyinah (islamic education institution in US).

O Allah, guide us all.

PS : sakit perut la makan banyak sangat sebab kak hasnah masak sedap sangat. oh kak hasnah, i always love your cooking. I'm gonna stuff my face, acecece, this year, cuz it's gonna be our last year together kan. sodih.

The feelings

Every single thing in this world, is never ours. It's His. If there is one or two things that had been lost from our grips, there is no place for us to get angry, sad or disappointed. This might be a test or the punishment for our wrongdoings. If it is a test, it is to level up the iman. If it is the punishment, it's to save us from going astray. Insha Allah. Have patience. With tests, come the patience.

Clean our hearts and thoughts. Don't dwell on the past, don't worry on the future. The past is gone, and the future is unknown. We just only have now, the present. Never holding grudges nor resentment. Leave the wrongdoer to the court of Hereafter when there is no judge but Allah.

Astaghfirullah hal a'zim. O Allah, guide us all. Amin.

Today's words

Haiii.

Hari ni basically macam hari lain jugak cuma pagi tadi pergi ambil membership Arc sebab tahun ni free jadi kita pun pergi jelah jadi member. 

Lepas tu petang tadi kita pergi jogging macam hari lain jugak. Eh tak macam sangat sebab 2 hari lepas tak jogging sangat banyak lenggang lenggok sebab nak warm up dulu kan. Lepas tu hari ni macam baru jogging tak lenggang lenggok. Ingat nak pergi C Park, tapi jauh wo, one day ah. Jadi pergi K Park je ah. (Nowadays dah tak boleh tulis exact location in details ke apa, orang kata bahaya)

Eh rupanya seronok kot jogging. Jumpa pakcik sorang ni dia jalan pakai tongkat. Lepas tu dia cakap dekat saya "Wow you have a very good energy, good for you", dah la masa tu kita tengah dengar lagu, so macam terkejut la tiba - tiba. Haha. Kesian pakcik ni mesti dia pun teringin nak berlari lari ku mencarimu jugak. So young people, go and run! while you still can. 

Lepas tu, hari ni dah tak jumpa dah pakcik jiran sebelah ni. Kalau tidak, tiap - tiap hari jumpa. Dah tu ramah lain macam. Bukan ape. Tahun lepas dia bermasam muka kot dengan saye sebab dia kata selalu dengar bunyi bouncing ball malam - malam 3pagi. Padehal takde siapa pun. Psycho kan? Kerap sangat ah dia datang bagitau. Pastu lepas saye balik dari Malaysia nowadays, macam baik gila lah pulak. Lama tak jumpa kot. So dia macam tanya pergi manelah, itulah inilah. And selalu jumpa time - time aku balik jog. Nasib not today. Kalau tak, macam aneh sangat lah. Haha. Berjodoh ke kite pakcikkk? huahuahua. Aish. Isteri dia moody garang gila kot. Aish tak berani den.

Okay dah habis. By the way, seriously, time jogging jelah nak dengar lagu. And then, lagu Say It right nelly furtado ni memang buat kita teringat sekolah sangat lah. Haha. Good times we have.

GWTF

So much confusion clouding my mind,
Spinning so fast, no peace to find,
Shall I, will I, can I, Should I,
Doubt upon doubt,
Thought like a fast train,
Changing at every station,
What's done cannot be changed,
What's changed is my salvation,
Why dwell on answers to a question that haven't evolved?
'Take your time girl', said the voice of reason,
Be confident, be bold,
There's no need to rush, chill and take it slow,
The music is playing relax, and go with the flow.

Allie Lusha

Shot through the heart, and you're to blame, darling you give love a bad name!

This one is kind of my last post from my house's pc.

I'm going to Sydney again, for the third time. It's my third year. And I don't know why, I feel so anxious right now. SO anxious that everything I did today seems so wrong. I can't sit, stand, eat, laying down, I can't. I am so nervous this time because it feels like I didn't know what's going to happen this year. 

Third year seems tougher just by looking through the subjects. I'm so worried that I'm all alone. My course mates, have to go on their way. One is in aero, and the other one is in mechatronic. Aish. Third year, why you come so fast??! 

I'm so anxious. Anxious anxious anxious. Kan best kalau kapal terbang yang aku naik tu die pusing kejap dekat Korea ke, aku nak ambik angin sekejap ah before sampai Sydney. Lepas tu harap dapat seat tepi tingkap supaye boleh tengok sekali lagi buruj ke bintang aku yang hari tu aku observe masa balik hari tu.

My stars, your darling is in a grieve. Wuwu.

BUT, even if I didn't know my future, or didn't know what's going to happen ahead of me, or maybe know a bit by prediction, somehow, I'm gonna wait for it, excitedly, full of spirits, full pf psyched, cuz I know, I can smile in trouble, I can gather strength from distress and grow brave from reflection (by Thomas Paine) InsyaAllah. Semua orang pun boleh kalau nak. Takdelah aku sorang je yang boleh. Hahaha.

Aja-aja fighting Lin! AJA! 

Lagu psyched kita and Barney Stinson same tau ;

Shot through the heart, and you're to blame, darling you give love a bad name!