August Rush

Its almost August, but 2014 hasn't give anything to me yet. Its probably just an ordinary-nothing-much-mundane-feels-like-giving-up-now-and-then-kinda-sad-and-gloomy year for me.

Probably the happiest days in 2014 were during my second visit in Sydney. 10th June to 18th June. Ah dah la Sydney. Pasni nak pegi University of Sussex ah plak. Nak buat Master of Astronomy. Bye ah Malaysia dan Sydney. Not gonna dwell on you guys nymore. Hmh 

Kahkah #berangan tak salah asalkan tahu bertempat. Hehe. Tapi.... AMIN. 

Baju raye, wa takde.

I stopped having new baju raya in 2009. 

Tahun 2010, pakai baju 2009.

Tahun 2011, pakai baju 2009.

Tahun 2012, pakai baju grads 2009.

Tahun 2013, pakai baju mix and match.

Tahun 2014...... Pakai baju grads 2009.

Haha. Well, for me, its not that I dont have semangat raya, its just that, i dont think i need baju raya. I need all other baju / dresses, except baju raya. K phm tak? So jgn nak judge sgt la kpd seseorang ni yg berkata:

"Ko ni dah kenape takde baju raya, bukan pempuan mmg kene ade baju raya? Ko ni pelik ah" 

Im the most tak pelik woman. Orang yg pelik ialah yg ada baju raya sampai 30 pasang, k!

Kbye, selamat hari raya maaf zahir batin. Walaupun kite tak suke beli baju raya, tak bermakna kita tak raya. Raya bukan pada baju ya! Bye.

Hey you, who makes flowers grow even in the saddest part of me,

When I first saw you, I knew I'll fall in love,  and you smiled because you knew.

Life doesn't have to be perfect for love to be extraordinary.

For the rest of my life, I'm always going to be grateful for that.

K, again.

I dont know why I hate K so much. Although skrg dia takde pun la buat apa apa pun lgsg, tp bila orang sebut nama dia skrg, just the thought of him, i feel so urghhh.

Urghh i just naturally hate him I guess. Probably, 'hate' is a strong word, but I really really really dont like him.

Dahla dgn judgemental, lepas tu poyo, i just dont like you. Kite dua, musuh forever. 

Your charm remind me of duit raya that I've received last year - none. 😒😒😒😒

Entah random je la

So I notice this abnormality that occurs in my body. It's happening for about a month. Macam 2 or 3 days before I went to Sydney. Lepas tu risau jeee tapi took one month to go to the doctor.

Before pergi doctor tu, kita dah buat journal semua dah, take note semua, macam berapa kali sehari jadi, and how long when it happens, and berapa jarak masa berlaku between one occurrence to another. Haha, I notice the doctor's face macam terkejuit la jugak tengok apesal minah ni bersedianya dia nak jumpa doctor sampai bawak logbook bagai. *cewah buku biasa je takdelah sampai log book*

Lepas tu doctor tu check mata macam Aya-neechan kena. errr 0.0. Yang dia ambil objek lepas tu dia suruh mata kita ikut objek tu ke atas ke tepi ke bawah ke kiri kanan semua la. At that time, memang
kite terus terpikir Spinocerebellar degeneration diseases. Huh? Cuak seh. Lepas tu terus lagu

"Nagareru kisetsu no mannaka de, Futohi no nagasa o kanjimatsu," okay 0.1 litre of tears dah ni. sedih doooooo lagu ni.

Lagi sebulan la kalau jadi lagi nak pergi hospitakk *cara Anoi typo eja hospital mase dekat KMS dulu hahaha since then me and Pah sebut hospital jadi "hospitakk" Benda macam ni pun boleh jadi bahan ketawa dengan Pah*

Hahahah I miss that woman!

Kbye.

Bye, you.

Laptop mati. Again. And im gonna cry in 3..2.. ㅠ.ㅠ

Sedih ar. Do you have to go right now? Really? Realllyyyy? Cant believe it. You know, you should be the one i'll always love. Skrg terpaksa love laptop lain. Bila dah beli la. Which is taktau bila akan berlaku. Tapi akan. Cewah.

Strangers

You and I, lead a lonely life,
That is the life we have to live,
Love easily breaks, time easily flows.

There's no such thing as an eternal promise,
Even the words we whispered as we looked at each other,
They will fade away like the dust that covers the sky,
We passed by each other like strangers.

I love you like crazy,
I love you, forever I will,
I won't let go, I will find you,
I'm just a stranger, without you my love.

-Bobby Kim.

The perk of being a final page.

If I am a book, i'm a final page, the one that usually has half written text in it, the one before few blank pages for autograph's purpose. 

The metaphor behind this? Takde. Aku mmg jenis page last last tu. Time yg determine happy ending ke sad ending ke to be continue ke. Gituw. Kewl tak? Sorry jd tak kewl. 

Bye. Slmt maju jaya.

You'll be there for me?

Perasaan manusia itu misteri. Thank you guys. I appreciate every single one of you. And I'm so grateful for having ppl like you guys around me.

Cerita FRIENDS berfaedah gak sikit sikit bila The Rembrandts did teach me a bit,

"I'll be there for you, when the rain start to pour, i'll be there for you, like i've been there before, i'll be there for you, cuz you there for me too"

...and the rain start to pour for real... From my eyes.... Sebab baru menguap. Tande kene tidur. Papai.

Sadness in life.

Nouman Ali Khan strikes again with his convincing words...

"It is not true that if we had true faith we would not be sad. Prophet (as) and righteous people experienced a great deal of sadness.The Quran is full of stories in which the central thene is sadness."

"Sadness is a reality of life. The Quran is not there to eliminate sadness but to navigate it. Sadness is one of the tests of life, just as happiness and angers, they are all tests in life."

Downnn

Antara benda benda yang boleh bagi down:

1) Takde kawan di tempat baru, lonely, for orang banyak cakap macam aku, tiba - tiba tak dapat nak beramah mesra, its like a disease, my soul is being locked up, im dying and withered inside.

2) Wajah pun tak bermaya sebab tak ceria, sedih memanjang, rasa nak menangis. Mungkin sebab homesickkkk.

3) Payung besar sampai boleh cover seluruh Connecticut, lepas tu bila bukak, terbalik, bencii. Malu okay. Selalu je jadi dekat Sydney tapi malu jugak jugakk.

4) Memang dah semula jadi down 2 hari ni. Or selepas balik Sydney.

5) Tempat ini terasa sungguh asing bagikuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu woo u woooooooo. Terasing.