150 of 365 : I KNOW.

Dont worry la, i'm not that stupid, i know where Im standing now, i know my place, i know what's the ending, i know its nothing, and I am not naive to only believe what I want to believe and just living in the bubbles. I know the REALITY. Cuz its so obvious too. Remember, ive gone through hell before?

Anyway, as for me, ive decided to just forget about it after 3 days, okay?

149 of 365 : Meet the match

I think i've met my match. This person really knows how to make me feel the uneasiness. And he's totally unreadable. Seriously ?

I feel so upset when I couldn't read what are on his mind? I feel blind. Nooooo. Hggghhngh

148 of 365: 10 things about me. Not that I have reader, but who knows someone is interested in me and secretly take a peek. Ehehe. Perasannya, Ya Allah!

1. I like to watch cooking tutorial videos. Dengan harapan suatu hari nanti nak buatlah yg ditengok. Sometimes, I also watch surgeon operating patient's video. Most recently; whipple procedure for cancer pancreatic patient. Dengan harapan one day jadi dokter.

2. I memorize pi number if I want to make sure my memorization capability is still there. Or sometimes when my mind wanders somewhere else, sampai nak pergi sekolah adik pun boleh salah jalan, I memorize pi number, so I can focus on road.

3. I can hardly differentiate between left and right.

4. I love doing food experiments.

5. I can easily have crush on ppl. Easily, but one at a time. When I fall for someone, I fall hard. Ish. So sometimes, I do google "how to avoid falling too hard for someone." haha. Stewpid.

6. I consider myself as a free-spirit person. Career/passion-wise. I do what I want to do, I be what I want to be, I quit when I feel like its choking me. Sound like a fickle-minded person hah? Depends on how you translate my career pathway. But one thing I tell you, I feel the satisfaction every time I took different route in my career.

7. I feel more comfortable if ppl walk on my right hand side.

8. I think I'm funny. I feel intimidated when a guy is funnier than me. Hahahaha. I want to be funnierrrrr :(

9. I can be simple, I can be complicated. I think it's depend on whom I'm dealing with. But I prefer myself to be simple-minded.

10. I like rainy days, winter, gloomy looking days, night, but I have fear of darkness. And deep water, heights, animals except cockroach.

142 of 365 : Tanjung Tuan, PD.

Maybe I should write seriously in this blog. Like experiences in this & that, recommendation holiday or tips? For what I know, my blog is totally useless for others. Untuk diri sendiri okay la sbb tempat meluahkan oddities yg tersembunyi. Hihi.

Bukan apelah, setiap kali dapat interview baru, dan dan google tengok experience org lain dekat blog mereka. Walhal, diri sendiri pun dah thousands interview pergi, dah boleh jd veteran interviewee (self-claimed).

Anyway, lemme share my experience during last holiday in PD. Thing is, bila sebut PD, mesti ramai fikir "ahhh cliche, its not like Perhentian". Therefore, siapa yang nak lari dari cliche tp maseh nk jejak PD (cuz its the nearest for those in Kl/Selangor - padan muka ddk bandar takde pantai), go to Tanjung Tuan beach. Miraculously cantik, bersih, air hijau hijau biru, pasir halus + takde bekas minuman dan plastic burger bersepahan. Kalau jenis yg mengada ngada nak travel comfortably je, book lah The Regency Tanjung Tuan Beach Resort, pergi bilik tingkat 10. Double storey room! Its like 3 star, so takdelah sampai breakfast in bed tu.

Tapi ape kena yg sampai nak breakfast in bed? Aku cukup pantang org makan atas katil. 

Anyway, we went there for BBQ je. BBQ tempat berbayar, so like if there's another group thinking of snatching the place away by claiming they are the owner, boleh lah bawak berbincang dekat pej admin. Akhirnya takde pertumpahan darah berlaku kerana berebutkan tmpt BBQ. 

Dan lagi, jgn guna arang bulat. Guna arang biasa je. Lambat ayam ayam nak masak. Akhirnya pemanggang ajaib (infamous non-stick red coloured pan) jugak yg berguna, bakar semua yg ada.

Ive tried to tangkap gambar bintang - hobi since forever. Tapi city lights terlalu mencemari suasana. Jadi tk dapat good picture tho G16 has "star" function. Mungkin finally kena terima kenyataan yg Msia lack of tmpt tgkp gambar bintang. Adelah satu tempat ni! Jalan batu arang (otw) to puncak alam. Tp sunyi sepi pula. Rate of crime tinggi, lepas tu rumours nampak pocong terbang lah apa. Say whutttt? 

One day, i'll just be brave and capture all these starry night scenes! Heh.

Anyway, setakat itu sahaja tips yg berguna. Bye

Not too crowded-beach

Sunset

Deep lah kononnya

My new thing now : tak tengok kamera, tak senyum. cewah.

Me and my pretty gal pal chillin' on the sofa, in the double storey resort!

"Aunty Piyana, last tau tengok kita fokus tengok kamera, lepas ni nak tengok tempat lain"

"Aunty Piyana, jomlah termenung, asyik tangkap gambar je, tak feelin la"

132 of 365 : A piece of advice for i-am-always-the-loves-more person

You know that saying : The one who loves more is the weaker one?

You are not weaker because you love more,
You've become weaker because you're not free at heart.

Free at heart means,
"Not worrying about the need to get back as much as you give,
While knowing that being able to love is enough to be happy."

But, who do you think should loves more? A guy or a girl?
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YOU. (I mean, doesn't really matter. Whoever reads this). Don't be so petty over this matter. Love can't be measured, so keeping score isn't necessary.

127 of 365 : How to NOT get a guy

Tips:

#1 Give a lot of attention

#2 Be a boring person

#3 Be clingy

#4 Don't be typical

#5 Be aggressive: Text first, call first, ask him out first, first first first.

To be continue.

126 of 365 : In parallel universe . . .

In a parallel universe?

In a parallel universe, I'm with someone who I love dearly. He laughs at my jokes, we are planning our next adventures, and maybe we are in Sydney, the place that I love the most on this planet. Riding a train together. He's not with someone else, he just there, right beside me. Before parting our ways, he gives me a gift that is meant for someone else (he was preparing that for his colleague because it was her birthday), but that colleague is not an important person, so he couldn't resist himself from not giving me anything before seeing me going away.

In a parallel universe, I have a career that I love. The payment is not that much, but it's enough for me. And I still got what's left as my saving, for my future adventure. I've got a caring and not so-bossy boss who is also, an understanding person. I love doing my job, and even though it's quite challenging, I'm waiting for the next day to do it again.

But a parallel universe is only staying as a parallel universe. Reality sucks. It's like your potential job is a joke, you're broke and your love life is dead on arrival. Nothing is going right. But, no one knows better than Allah SWT. For all I know, that parallel universe actually is never good. Sounds good, but probably, it's only a disaster. A calm before storm.

...but perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah SWT Knows, while you know not. [Al-Baqarah:216]

La Tahzan, innalah ha ma'na. Tuhanku, tuntunlah hatiku supaya sabar dalam menanti apa yang tertulis untukku...

125 of 365 : Belum

So if something is not meant for you,
Then, it's not.
Bukan lagi. Hmmm. Takpe.

Sometimes, ada sesetengah orang tu telah ditakdirkan untuk berjumpa 100 yang salah sebelum jumpa The One. Sometimes, ada sesetengah orang tu telah ditakdirkan untuk dia berusaha lebih sikit sebelum dia dapat The One. Sometimes, ada sesetengah orang tu telah ditakdirkan bertemu failure demi failure untuk dia menghargai The One. Belum lagi jumpa. But hey, I think its okay if its a bit late. For something that is going to stay for long long time, I think it's worth it.


So, yeah people, that's what I believe.
I won't feel ashamed of my effort. This effort, it's so priceless, it's worth it. Always.
If we're not busy being born, we're busy dying.
So, as Dory the fish always said: JUST KEEP SWIMMING.
Kalau telah ditakdirkan, makanya...

::: I was talking about this one company rejecting me even after Hi Tea session with Director :'(

124 of 365 : I just want to sulk.

Ever felt like sulking?
Me yes. Like right now.

Rasa nak merajuk la, tho we both are nobody to each other. Haha. Okay. Actually, it doesn't make sense for me to feel like sulking with this person, but that's what I wanna do right now. Fineeeeeeeee. :( Merajuk ah.

Dengan P******** pun nak merajuk. Ignoring me. Fine. At least, please give me some two or three last words as a courtesy, can't you? :(